Breaking Open: Healing Myself
I’ve been thinking about the process of healing and how it is that we arrive at that place we might call healed.
The place of arrival being found in the space between what was and what is becoming- where you suddenly find your peace, your roots solid and firm. Maybe its the place where you finally feel at home within yourself. The place where you are here more and more.
But you cannot arrive here without going there first.
There being the place where we surrender and come undone. The place where we can break open and break into ourselves.
It’s a being with and being in - our shadow, our memory, our feelings, and our body.
This is what healing looks like.
Breaking. A death repeated many times. Meeting ourselves over and over again in the depths of our inner world. Releasing and remembering. This is where we collect the pieces and fragments left scattered, long forgotten.
If we’re brave enough to linger in those dark corners we’ll meet our shadow and the younger parts of ourselves as we sift through the rubble- the pieces, broken and lost.
Joy and curiosity live here too.
It is in these spaces that I found myself with three-year-old me. Through her i was able to find my way back to joy and wonderment. Back to clouds and paper. Back to the moon and water.
Because in the breaking open we not only move through the darkness - we have an opportunity to call back the parts of us that held light and the essence of what existed at our core in the time before. [Read more about holding grief tenderly here.]
Before the things we’re trying to heal.
To find the self we’re trying to recover.
This is where I’ve been. This is where younger me has been. Where she collected the fragmented pieces of herself. Where she brought back her soul.
A return to self. A return to home. [Explore the journey of reconnecting with yourself here]
So break open. come undone. Unravel and let yourself fall apart. Be brave enough to be with yourself rather than hiding or running away from yourself.
Iit’s in those fragments and broken parts that you’ll find the answers and medicine you’re looking for.
Reflection prompt
What parts of yourself are ready to be called back? Reflect on what light and joy your inner child holds and how you can begin to reconnect with those pieces of you.
Somatic practice
Sit quietly in a comfortable position. Close your eyes and take a few deep breaths.
Place one hand on your heart and another on your belly. As you breathe, ask your younger self, “What do you need to feel safe and seen?”
Stay with whatever arises, holding yourself with compassion and tenderness.
If you feel that gentle tug to begin your own healing journey, somatic coaching or somatic therapy can provide the support you need. Together, we can explore the tender parts of you that are ready to be witnessed, including your inner child. Let’s connect and see how we can work together. Learn more about somatic coaching here
Con amor, Marisela
